Actual reactions to me coming out to friends and acquaintances. – Are you sure? – When did you decide you didn’t like girls? – Do you like Mariah Carey? – Don’t you want children? – Do you think I’m cute? Am I your type? – I love Jean Paul Gaultier! – So are you the […]
May 18, 2015
Part 1 is here. I learned about gay sex by having gay sex. That may seem completely normal, but if you think about it, it’s rarely the case for most people. I had never seen a gay porn, I had never read anything about men having sex with each other, I had never even seen […]
May 12, 2015
I know I talk a lot about sex. I like talking about sex so much that I majored in it. But it wasn’t always like this. There was a time when I knew nothing about sex, and that was well into my late teens. Even though my first sexual experience was at the tender age […]
April 26, 2015
No spoilers here. Weekend- This beautiful, beautiful, beautiful movie is a story that every gay man lives, 20 or 30 times in our lives. You meet someone wonderful, and you spend an amazing weekend together where everything works. And then you leave each other. Hedwig and the Angry Inch- Until Weekend came along, this was […]
November 5, 2013
It’s a dark night in Beirut, the San Francisco of the Middle East. This darkness is powerful. It represents Beirut’s past, its present, and its bleak future. But tonight, it also represents the state of gay people in this Middle Eastern city by the sea. Hassan, whose name I have changed to protect his privacy […]
March 26, 2013
She sits there, in front of the TV, staring at a black screen. The house is empty. It is silent. She hears the echoes of laughter. The memory is still there. Her seat on the couch remains the same. She does not move over to the more comfortable side. That was where her lover used […]
March 20, 2013
“Let’s plot sexy revolution, plan perverse adventures and talk about pornographic ideas.” Acid. It was the meeting place of every single outcast in Beirut. Men, women, and everything in between could go there, for one night, and have the time of their lives. Or they could end up in jail. And even when they did, […]
February 13, 2013
There are hallways, labyrinths, dark alleys. There are young men, old men, sexy men, skinny men, fat men. There are gay men, bisexual men, and certainly a few questioning, terrified men. There are men on all fours, men with their legs up in the air, men jerking off, men sucking off other men. There are […]
May 26, 2015
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